jasdrel :*

it's been along time we didn't have time together.
But yesterday, finally we did.
Lia, Edo, Rolando, Joan, Danny, Gatri and me had our dinner together at Pizza Hut. so sad without AUdy and Reynaldi.
there are much story we shared together. we laughed out of loud. We did something we lost for a while.
I am so Happy. no word can describe how I miss that friendship, I miss that moment together with JASDREL.
The time won't be enough for spent together with them.
aaaaa, I will miss you guys.
Edo will come back to Ausy, Lia will come back to Bandung, Joan will move to Jakarta, Danny also, Gatri to Singapore, everyone will do their best to reach their dream.
Good luck my dear :*
even I will miss you so much, but I believe there will be another time we spend together later on.
we will never lost contact. We are still JASDREL.
:(
huaaaaa, :'( if I can come back to the past, when we were at 11.
when we always do something together like we will never be apart.
when we do our assignment together at a whole day.
when we can go to the canteen together and laugh together at the rest time.
but present moment is the wonderful one.
Thank you so much guys for the quality time.
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AM I????

tonight I remembered about something really hurt me.
I don't know what exactly the time but I remembered when my friend said that I am bitch.
I don't know why he can judge me like that, I also don't know what I've done before so can make he thought like that.
At that time I was very angry and sad.
Can you imagine how I felt when someone told me I am a bitch!
I was BROKE!!
from that time, I always ask to my self, Am I the person like he said before?
Am I truly the one acted like bitch? what's wrong with me!
So damn!! I can't stop thinking about that.
I has already start something WRONG!! I wanna STOP,
Please, tell me what I have to do right now?
I'm going to be crazy!
I wanna learn to say NO to something I don't want! but I just can't do it.
every little single word always make me feel sorry if I reply with NO,
it just like that words force me to say Yes, even if I don't want to do that.
AM I THE PERSON LIKE HE SAID BEFORE?