AM I????

tonight I remembered about something really hurt me.
I don't know what exactly the time but I remembered when my friend said that I am bitch.
I don't know why he can judge me like that, I also don't know what I've done before so can make he thought like that.
At that time I was very angry and sad.
Can you imagine how I felt when someone told me I am a bitch!
I was BROKE!!
from that time, I always ask to my self, Am I the person like he said before?
Am I truly the one acted like bitch? what's wrong with me!
So damn!! I can't stop thinking about that.
I has already start something WRONG!! I wanna STOP,
Please, tell me what I have to do right now?
I'm going to be crazy!
I wanna learn to say NO to something I don't want! but I just can't do it.
every little single word always make me feel sorry if I reply with NO,
it just like that words force me to say Yes, even if I don't want to do that.
AM I THE PERSON LIKE HE SAID BEFORE?