I don't know what I have to hope

Oh my God!!!
I've done the most daring deal with him. x_x
if he gets the maximum value later on, then I promise him, I'll do it.
actually, I just want to encourage him to keep his spirit to fight for his future.
I swear that I will only do it for him.
even though I still doubting him, I tried to believe that he will change.
he will turn into more mature than I hope.
I believe he will turn into a great man, no longer a boy!
but, there are deep apologize inside of me for someone outside there.
I know it was my mistake. But it was not only mine, it ours.
My big hope is it will be the last for him.
no more affair in his life. i don't want to feel the same like her.
x_x