Going grazy!!!

I don't know what I have to do with all of this.
First, I'm actually want to make SAMUDRA more success than the old one. I want to prove to anybody else that we can survive with or without you.
But the other side of these, I'm tired of being like this. No spirit, no people, no responses, no real support, NOTHING at all.
They only can speak up without do anything.
I wanna end this situation, I wanna quit. I rally really wanna quit!!!!
But a side of my self, there's SAMUDRA inside.
it make me really confuse! I don't know whether I should give up and don't care with anything else, or I should survive and make my self tired.
In this situation, I really really need You Bhante. the only one who always support us.
who always beside us when we face a problem or when we need something.
The only one who truly care and thankful of our exist.
even it just a little thing, He always say thank you.
I need You. I really need You.
give me a solutions, I don't know what I have to do.
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